Well, well, well. It's been a while and SO much has happened. For the longest time I've been dreaming and stressing about changes happening in my life and haven't completely figured out how to handle it all to be quite honest. Hmm...where should I start?
I recently faced one of the biggest challenges I've ever come across in my life but managed came out successful. Although, along the way I noticed a DARK CLOUD forming over me and it began to alter the person I was on the inside and affect the way I engaged in my personal relationships as well. I felt different. I was thinking different. I was acting different. I couldn't help but wonder if that was a part of me deep down all along. I suppressed a lot in order to take on the journey to become my best SELF. It might have not been the healthiest approach, but I was trying. And I am still LEARNING.
It gets lonely sometimes and I've just been trying to keep up with my faith, because at the end of the day I have feeling I am meant for something special. I've been having the wildest dreams lately and wondering what it all could mean. I mean, it has to mean something RIGHT? I'll have to explain more about that later.
Nevertheless, there is also HIM. The one in my dreams. He's a special one for sure. I often wonder about HIM. And I often let my intrusive thoughts win. As much as I try to push it away, it is incredibly strong.
But HIM. I think he is stronger. I at least want him to be. These intrusive thoughts have left me
conflicted and overthinking anything that has to do with HIM, and it drives me insane.
But the way I feel about HIM, too, drives me insane. I believe that from the moment I met HIM is when my fairytale story started to really begin.
It wasn't just a dream anymore.
~iheartfairytales
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